I'm afraid Art will die. I'm afraid of people's reactions when I say that. I'm afraid my requests will not get met becuase so how we/I are/am not worthy. I'm afraid I will gain weight (I have series issues around this). I'm afraid we will loose friends. I'm afraid of other people's issues around Art's illness. I'm afraid of so much.
Fear is one of those things you cannot tell someone they shouldn't have. And there in lies the problem. It is an internal battle. Left unchecked it rules my life. If I can let the hot water run down my back and turn up the volume on the other voice. The voice that rejoices in who Art and I are, what we have made together, and the friends that surround us, then just maybe, maybe I can take a step away from the fear. I will do that.