I drove up with Loretta, a friend from college, after realizing I couldn’t do it myself. I am in no emotional state to drive for 6 ½ hours with the kids.
It’s the first time I have been at the ranch without Art.
It is the first place and time that I actually feel him.
Nothing can describe the longing.
No words, no actions, no ache.
No words can touch the devastation, the depression or the crushing loneliness.
Nothing can describe it.
So for now I won’t even try.