Friday, February 23, 2007


The novelty of being home is being replaced with the responsibility of Art's care. I care for four people instead of just three. Art sleeps most of the time now, gets up to eat at breakfast and dinner only. We still go to the cancer center every day to have his blood drawn. He gets a bit stronger every 24 hour period, but it's in such small increments it's hard to see progress. (I just reread that paragraph. Listen to me! Good grief, we'ver only been home for 3 24 hour periods! No matter, I want progress, damn it!! How human of me. No matter where we are in this disease, it feel like we've been here foooorrrreeeeevvvvvveeeeeerrrrrr.)

Art will be tested on Monday. The tests will reveal whether or not the cancer has gone. The thought of going through this again is like a tsunami, too overwhelming to comprehend. Art and I wedge ourselves around this pink elephant instead.

Which leads me to repeat Art's new slogan. LIVE NOW (capitals only). I like it. It's like being dope slapped back into true reality (several levels above the human experience). Instead of dwelling in the "what if's," I will LIVE NOW and...head to bed.

Thank you everyone for your support. Loving us is, honestly, the most powerful healing there is.


  1. Anonymous8:03 AM

    Art's new slogan/mantra is prophetic and he has joined the ranks of the Dalai Lama and Gandhi.



  2. Anonymous7:47 AM

    Here it is Monday morning and was just checking in to see how you are doing. I'm sure the anticipation of the tests may intrude into the LIVE NOW philosophy but as Art is in the ranks of the Dalai Lama and Gandhi all will be well.
    All our love coming your way today and many days forward.
    Julie, Brian, Alex and Jesse (big 5 year olds yesterday!) and ?

  3. Anonymous4:33 PM

    LIVE NOW! the tune of "Hi Ho, Hi Ho" or any other tune you want - just sing and shout!
    we pray and are loving you all every day - big hugs - thanks so much - Marie and Ellis