LIVE NOW

The novelty of being home is being replaced with the responsibility of Art's care. I care for four people instead of just three. Art sleeps most of the time now, gets up to eat at breakfast and dinner only. We still go to the cancer center every day to have his blood drawn. He gets a bit stronger every 24 hour period, but it's in such small increments it's hard to see progress. (I just reread that paragraph. Listen to me! Good grief, we'ver only been home for 3 24 hour periods! No matter, I want progress, damn it!! How human of me. No matter where we are in this disease, it feel like we've been here foooorrrreeeeevvvvvveeeeeerrrrrr.)

Art will be tested on Monday. The tests will reveal whether or not the cancer has gone. The thought of going through this again is like a tsunami, too overwhelming to comprehend. Art and I wedge ourselves around this pink elephant instead.

Which leads me to repeat Art's new slogan. LIVE NOW (capitals only). I like it. It's like being dope slapped back into true reality (several levels above the human experience). Instead of dwelling in the "what if's," I will LIVE NOW and...head to bed.

Thank you everyone for your support. Loving us is, honestly, the most powerful healing there is.

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